Lucky

Had a standard check-up/physical appointment today with my new doctor in Tallahassee. I received news that all of my blood-work looked absolutely normal, and some parts of it even better than normal. I can't help but feel very lucky and blessed. I know that God, Family, and Friends would and will help me through whatever could have and may happen, but I am just in awe with gratitude that the kind of support I need is just general, normal, every day support and love these days. If that makes any sense. There is no emergency, no super intense drama- I am actually relatively smoothly sailing along the ocean of life. And my life is pretty quote, unquote, normal. And that is great! I am finding that, for the most part, normal is okay with me.

Just finished summer classes last week...studied Jazz History for six weeks which was interesting. I am writing songs here and there, and recording them on Garageband. I don't know what I will do with them,  but I am accepting that it is okay to make music, just for the fun of it. It is okay to do it just for my own processing and enjoyment.

I looked back in my blog to figure out how long I've been in remission now. And the date I received a clean scan was approx. 4/20/09. It is now 8/12/11, which means I've been in remission for about two years and four months! Woohoo. I am really a lucky girl. Thank you God! 

I am not writing this to gloat, I hope it encourages someone who is going through a similar time. A cancer experience is intense. And even after that, the anxiety about recurrence can be intense. But life is good and worth risking disappointment for. I mean, we must live while we are here....and embrace the day and the opportunities it brings! 

I wish everyone peace, love, and happiness, including myself. :)